no light..

so today was a bad day, to say the very least. i had my last exam today. last exam for the semester. i studied for it. albeit not as much as i probably should have. but hey, i did study. i know im not making the whole "study" part up in my head. yep. i had my last exam today. at least i was supposed to. but no. there was no feeling of "omg f**k i dont know how to answer this question!", no "why does that guy keep asking for more sheets of paper?? his writing is like size 10 font single spaced and HES ASKING FOR MORE SHEETS OF PAPER??". none of those thoughts were going through my head today, why? cos i didnt sit the exam. not because i simply didn't want to turn up. no. that's what i did for the lectures.

i had every intention on going to the exam. my alarm didn't sound though, so i slept in and missed it. it was kinda weird. i sat up in bed, (saw that it was light outside, alarms were going off in my head), grabbed my phone and saw that the exam started half an hour before. then came that sinking feeling. you know, when you feel like your heart was dropping so low that it was about to fall out your butt. yeah that feeling.

by now you're probably wondering why this post is named "no light...", and forgive my new-blogger-newbyness for not making the title-body connection earlier in the post. im watching reruns of the Ghost Whisperer on TV. Ghosts who are supposed to cross into the 'light' blah blah blah.
There was no light today. kind of a dark day for me. actually no. it wasnt. Thank God for my friends. they were here for me today. no i didnt want the whole hus galore then sit there holding hands talking it through. nor did i get that from them today. ew just thinking about that makes my skin crawl. i dont like all that lovey dovey stuff. creeps me out. no. they were just there. just there. laughing with me during a funny movie. chatting to me on Facebook (my status about missing the exam was a hit!). so yeas they were just there.

so there was light today after all. i should probably change the title of this post now. or not.

here goes...

ok, so this is my blog. feels weird. been thinking of doing it for a while, just doing it now. so here it goes...
yeah i came up with a really cool name for my blog too. wedgejuice. pretty catchy stuff. cos my nickname is wedge (long story) and wedgejuice would be my (thought) juice. not actual juice. that'd be gross. ew.

so yeah...
here i am, at 11:48pm on a sunday night, writing to all you people. all 2 of you, including me. im supposed to be studying for an exam right now, i have my last exam for the semester tomorrow. always the hardest one to study for. i find it really hard to convince myself that i care. im also finding it hard to care about university in general too. but thats a story for another day.

wow. im actually blogging now. so cool. there's a movie on TV right now. "When a stranger calls". pretty lame title for a movie i thought, but the lead actor is pretty, and skinny, 2 very important things to have/be if you're starring in a move where you're pretty much the only person on camera for the entire movie. ok now im just rambling.. i tend to do that when im tired.

ok im gonna go try to study. or concentrate on (re)watching "when a stranger calls"
yeah.